Running has never been an issue in other aspects of my life at least.
I Know its been a minute. Iv been at my mothers instead of my ex’s for a few weeks. Stuck in between demanding my respect me and finding rock solid independence. Waiting to start training for my new tech support work at home job. while cruisin around this urban hell with my country full blast, I always have this blog on my mind and thats exactly why my running blog is here for a reason. Its a battle, and I love running and it makes me feel at home in a way and
it is such a struggle for me to find, “home”.
And running has been put on the back burner and I really dislike that.
But on a silly note…
Life battles are excuses too but in my defense I left my running shoes at my exes house and been running my ass off as far as putting the puzzle together.
I would go big or go home and run in my flip flops but the first pair I got
was from the Dollar Tree, and they broke driving home
from the Dollar Tree.
Im currently looking for a nice camper to stay in and park on the side of her house.
Dont laugh! Okay, its okay. I am laughing too. 😂
Its logical though really. There isnt technically an office space here at my moms, so I am improvising. All in one son.
Ill Save up and only invest in myself. Work my ass off and run at night gitty in the shitty city thinking im witty.
And I have not forgotton about my mission here, and that I have some goals to smash.
- Run and lose 30 Lbs.
- Only focus on me.
- Buy a “vintage tiny home”
- Make lots of money.
- Fix my credit, Iv been learning a lot about disputes. (so interesting finding out how creditors can be so shady over medical bills! This shall be fun )
After wasting so much of my time and effort on relationships, the most recent being the most frustrating by far.
I have decided to only rely on me and quit putting my heart into people that dont give a shit about me.
Below is what I have found that I can actually afford, and the picture on the bottom is in my opinion over priced but the top one is actually way cute if I was a spider.
This ex of mine.
Oh what a peach. I liked that he was a little chubby too, thinking he cant judge me if he has got work to do as well.
Having a conversation with him recently ended with me saying very bitch like,
“what the hell, don’t sit and stare at my stomach while I am trying to tell you WHY your son should do his homework!!”
As i continue to bitch,
” Look I can do the same thing and stare at your stomach the whole time I am parenting you too, as you sit there and eat your ice cream.”
Now I got another person I will in fact prove wrong. But thats just squirrel talk, Its about me sometimes too.
On a run day one all over again
Found a new trail as well.
Here is a poem real quick out of the random blue because I love you-
“I don’t know where I am running to.
Nor do I have anyone to.
But I will find my way all on my own.
The last thing I need in my life is a human
My poetry used to be all depressing, but I know laughter is the only way I can deal with things without getting all emotional. 🙂
Running is also my road to saving myself.
I know its only been a few times a week so far but its better than I have ever done in my life.
I want to put the talk test to test tonight too, it always depends on the situation and my comfort zone however but I guess it will pan out the way it will pan out.
We will see 🙂
Crisp is the week, and so am I. Each day starts fresh, it’s time to fly!
Is it okay to run around at night? because I feel like I totally could
But I wont. I live in a pretty scary area and I have a tazor gun, but it scares the hell out of me.
But anyways, I went to the REC center and it was only 2 dollars. There was a younger group of people playing basket ball on the lower level and of course my anxiety kicked in and I thought they were laughing at me, which very well could have been the case seeing how I was probably sounding like I needed an ambulance soon. HAHA
Mean while .. I just started running LMAO .. I kind of tried to get the running tracker app to record my progress so I at least had some proof. It was taking forever though and even deleted pinterest LOL
After running five laps it finally down loaded and I ran with my phone. 10 times around is a mile and I know I at least did 5 before it started tracking me.
It says I ran .58 miles, however I did take frequent breaks.
I went harder than I probably should have however, but only because they closed at nine and so even if I wanted to run further I would have to do so else where.
That’s what I get for procrastinating and worrying about where I would run all day I guess. But now that I got the first day dealt with I feel more confident in running pretty much anywhere.. I think.
I posted on the local face book page asking where there are some good running spots around here and got quite the response 🙂
So I will try them out on my next run.
Thanks for staying patient with me y’all and believing in me ! YAIY
I feel so good right now!! 🙂
I’m so excited, and I just can’t hide it… ya know, ya know, ya know. 🙂
Everyone is asleep though.
Oh ya.. and I didn’t record my talk test because of the rush of getting it all done.. I did however take a selfie.
There will be more to come that is for sure!